While in Atlanta, I had the pleasure of meeting a blind man named Jerry. I was my guide at the “Dialogue in the Dark” exhibit. This exhibit walks you through the life of a blind person. While maneuvering through pitch black rooms with a walking stick and only having my senses of touch and sound, I was able to understand how it is to be blind. Jerry has been blind since 2004 due to an eye disease.
God calls us to be anomalies. 1 Peter 2:9 tell us, But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness into his marvelous light. So, the question is when people look at you what do they see?
Last Sunday, I was praying for guidance from God in regards to a close friend who was walking down a different road then myself. I was troubled because we were about to spend some time together and she wanted to do somethings I no longer did and I felt that she did not understand my journey. I also felt that we had been friends for a long time and I did not want to jeopardize our friendship. I started praying for the Lord to have his way in my life and for His will to be done hoping that he would have favor on our friendship.
Last Tuesday, I was getting ready for bed and was discouraged that my job hunt hadn’t been going as expected. I thought about how I knew I had the charisma and the drive, but getting potential employers to recognize that on paper was difficult. I couldn’t understand why things were not working out. As I laid there God spoke to me. He said that He was only doing what I asked Him to do!
So, why is it that we reach out to God when situations/relationships in our life are falling apart? We pray and ask God to make our mess okay. We pray and ask God to bless our relationship full of fornication and sin. We go to great lengths to make it work, but eventually it fails. And, we find ourselves bitter, angry, scorn and hurt wondering why God did not fix it. Um, God DID fix it!
The other day I was spending time with a friend, who I’ve known for many years. I thought about how I have changed so much since we first met and how he was unfortunately still the same. I glanced over at him and asked myself, “Are you supposed to be here in my life?” The answer was no.